...seems to be a expression I coined to describe my not-autobiography enterprise of explaining myself to myself. Google finds just one occurrence of the two words in conjunction, but 'reckoning' is a verb... I mean 'reckoning' as a noun.
Somewhere here there's space to consider attitude, noting the dangers of Solipsism Wikipedia and Solipsism etymonline
and exploring the desirability of self deprecatory as personal style
AI Overview
Self-deprecating means trying to make oneself, one's abilities, or achievements seem less important. It involves disparaging or undervaluing oneself, often through humor, to appear modest or to downplay one's successes.
- As a type of humor: It can be used to be funny by showing vulnerability and a lack of pretension. For example, saying, "I'm so bad at public speaking, my voice starts shaking just thinking about it" is a self-deprecating joke.
- As a personality trait: Someone who is habitually self-deprecating may use it to appear humble. For instance, if a colleague says, "I was lucky to get the award, anyone could have done my job," they are being self-deprecating.
- In a negative context: While often used harmlessly, excessive self-deprecation can be a sign of low self-esteem. If someone constantly downplays their accomplishments, it could be an indicator of deeper issues with self-worth.
- In a positive context: When used genuinely, self-deprecation can be a sign of confidence and approachability. It shows that a person is comfortable with their imperfections and does not take themselves too seriously.
John suggested adding a 'w' to 'reckoning'